Self-Portraits With Butterflies

Many of the great artists of the past sketched or painted themselves.

They looked into a reflective surface and used their own features in their art.

One of my favorite Renaissance artists, Albrecht Durer, created many images of himself in his lifetime; his first self-portrait was drawn around age 13.

I always enjoy looking at artist’s self-portraits.

They can reveal so much without any words at all.   (love this one). Many times, self-portraits reveal the artist’s emotional condition and what their situation in life was at the time it was executed.

I looked back through my blog posts and the last time I posted a self-portrait was about 2 years ago. It was a simple photograph, nothing fancy.

But a lot has happened since my 35th birthday.

In the same way that I try to keep my anger and pain veiled to those around me, I add layers of texture and images to veil my face.

I’ve been blogging for a while now, but I still hesitate sometimes. Perhaps it’s  because I know that some of my art may seem strange, not fitting the mold of the homeschooling housewife living in suburbia, who really should be knitting or something instead of posting wierded-out photos of herself!

It’s ok if you don’t like them, as long as you understand that my life is consumed with my son’s disease.  That’s the message.

You might even be inspired to create a self-portrait of your own.  In 10 years, you’ll be glad you did.

12 thoughts on “Self-Portraits With Butterflies

  1. Hi Scarlett .. I love the butterfly self-portraits .. weaving layers to ‘hide’ behind .. I don’t know what Cockayne Syndrome is – but it seems extremely challenging for you and your son .. my thoughts are with you. I’ll find out and be around ..

    I like learning and know little about art – just always happy to learn a little more .. Albert Durer’s work has always fascinated me.

    Look after yourself – happy 4th July .. I’m in England .. so finishing watching Wimbledon .. cheers for now .. Hilary

    1. @Hilary, thanks so much for stopping by. CS is a disease that causes children to grow old very fast. I have recieved wonderful support from the group in your home country called “Amy and Friends” (I have it linked when you click on my son’s pic on the right).
      ~Scarlett

  2. These are beautiful; you look stunning n ‘gorgeous~! I so get these..
    My family thought I was crazy; I had a butterfly ritual, when I developed thyroid disease. The gland is shaped like a butterfly; I was 35 and had make up on Orange monarch like. My mother n’ daughter participated with me. I had a moving experience which I shared here:
    http://ellasedge.blogspot.com/2011/04/v-is-for-visualization.html
    I think you will like it~ I know your Dad is gone and you now have a connection a rare butterfly~xXx

    Thanks for visiting me; I do hope you get a bike… You would love it; Thanks for your kind words! Happy 4th Scarlett to you n’ yours~

  3. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your self portraits! I miss you, friend! I love catching glimpses of your heart on your blog. Very tastefully done. You WILL be VERY glad you have these in the distant years to come. I love them!

    But I love the artist even more than the portraits! I think of you DAILY…praying for you and K (and the whole Clay clan). You guys are never far from our thoughts and always in our prayers.

    Much love, a

    1. @Amy, I’m so glad you stopped by, I need to hop over to your blog and catch up, too–thanks so much and I hope you all are doing well and can’t wait to see some recent pics of baby J. and the rest of your crew. :)
      ~Scarlett

  4. Scarlett,
    These are beyond beautiful. If this Christian walk can’t encompass your current experience what’s the use? There certainly is no mold that you should ever fit in especially now. Your artwork has always been so meaningful but your ability to express yourself and your creativity have increased exponentially. I am so sorry that it has taken this trial to lead you deeper into your expression. Again, thank you for including all of “us” in your journey. Still praying daily.
    I love you.

    1. @Jeana, your words are such a blessing to me. Thank you for affirming my art in the midst of this crisis. I really don’t know what else to do other than what I’m doing. Love you too, Scarlett

  5. Hi Scarlett .. yes I’ve seen her on tv briefly – and she came across to the States I think as she wanted to go to Disney ..

    So I’m pleased you have some people to tap into, who have encountered similar challenges – your son must be a blessing in disguise .. he will be wondrous of all around him ..

    Still love your pictures .. see you soon – sent with lots of hugs – Hilary

  6. Scarlett, your self portraits are beautiful, mysterious, and haunting. The layers are so expressive – they hide and veil, and are yet revealing at the same time. Continued prayer for you all… <3 <3 <3

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