Knox Went to Heaven

 

My baby is gone.

My little Knox had been battling a double ear infection over the last month. None of the antibiotics worked.

Then he caught a respiratory virus (RSV) on top of it all, and his body wasn’t strong enough.

He spent the last 5 days of his life in a coma, and then peacefully died beside me in bed early Saturday morning, February 1st, 2014.

My arms are empty and the pain is worse than I imagined.  I’ve  joined the sisterhood of grieving mothers and must now prepare for my son’s funeral.

My heart is broken.   3 years wasn’t enough.

 

40 thoughts on “Knox Went to Heaven

  1. Any words at this moment will make any sense in front of such a big loss.
    Just lifting up my prayers for you and little Knox and a warm hug.

  2. I am so sorry. This mother grieves with you and shares tears for your sweet son. I will be praying for comfort for you and your family.

  3. I am shedding tears for a mother and son I have never met. I am so very sorry to read this news. What a beautiful soul little Knox was. Bless you and your family. Love to you.

  4. I’m so glad I had the chance to meet Knox and to hold him in my arms. It is a memory I will treasure forever. I wish you and your family were nearer but am holding you close in my heart. For one so tiny, Knox made a huge impact and will continue to do so. xxx PS This photo is just adorable. Whenever I see a butterfly, this is the picture that will come to mind.

  5. Dear Scarlett – I am thinking of you and your family at this very sad time. Knox was such a lovely character and was able to enjoy as full a life as possible because of you, his life was short but he had loads of love and cuddles from you all.
    Tears will flow from many people including me (and I only met Knox once) but he will always remain in our hearts, bless him he was a very special young man.
    Love to you all
    Marg x

  6. Words just don’t seem enough to convey how deeply sorry I am for your loss and I can only imagine how devastated you are as a Mother to loose your child. It’s something no one should ever have to go through!

    Know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers, as is all of your family, and I am sending you light, love and strength. xoxo

  7. I’m so sorry for your loss. Please know that you are in my prayers. I know that this is very, very hard to go through. I know that God will see you through this time.

  8. So so sad for you and your family, words aren’t enough to offer you at this unbearable time, but thoughts are certainly sent your way.

  9. What is there to say – while we have never met nor have I met your son my heart hurts for you. I pray hard for you that you will be able to withstand this pain. God generally only gives us what we can handle and so because of that I know you are strong. My arms around you…

  10. Scarlett, My heart aches with you for your darling Knox. Jesus has his arms around him and you, past, present and future.
    Love and prayers,
    Sue

  11. I weep for your pain. No, three years was not long enough. But all he ever knew was complete love, what a lucky boy he was!

  12. A friend that learned of my CS kids, shared with me that a life filled with love is a life fully lived. I hope my children get to experience as much love as Knox.

  13. You have touched all of our hearts as you shared your love for Knox, many of us feel that we know you and your family. So many hearts breaking now. Much love, thoughts and prayers coming your way.

  14. Dear Scarlett and family,
    God has a new angel and he is looking after all of you. I understand the ache in your arms and athe loss only a mother can feel. You loved your darling Knox so much and he took that love with you. He is happy and with the Lord.
    You and your family are in my thoughts and certainly my prayers. PLease give your darling daughter my love. Her video was so beautiful. A lasting legacy to and for Knox.
    God bless you and your loving family.
    Love and a big hug,
    Karen

  15. My heart carries your heart as I remember dear Knox. Thank you for your courage and generosity and graciousness in sharing him and your self with us.

  16. OMG Scarlett!! I am so so sorry….I cannot imagine the pain….Please know that you are in my thoughts & prayers…you & your whole family…. There is a new angel in heaven…. My heart is breaking for you :*(

    (((HUGS))))

  17. I’m so sorry to hear the news of your loss. Knox was such a sweet baby. I admire your strength and courage in seeing him through all of this with so much love and devotion. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. ~Sophia

  18. I am so very sorry for your loss and hope that God’s loving grace and peace can help you through this most difficult of times.

  19. I am so sorry to hear your angel has left, this earth. You know his spirit lives on in you, your husband and your wonderful family! Treasure all the memories-he was a gift! I am sad for all of you at this difficult time. Hold each other close, his spirit is still with you~

  20. I am so sorry for your loss, we never met Knox or you but this sad news brought tears to my heart. Our prayers go to your family.

  21. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Knox. May you forever be comforted by the memory of his beautiful life. God bless you and your family.

  22. This child is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your son’s story.
    I wish there was more love in the world like yours.

  23. my thouhtgs are with you and your family,loosing a child is one off the worst thing on earth,you carry him the rest off your life,nobody can’t thake that away from you.
    buth he has so much love off his mother (and family)in his live. that’s make his life onforgetable.
    marielou

  24. Dear Scarlett and family – I can’t imagine how you are feeling and the struggles of emptiness besides you … you have told us so much about CS and in particular about Knox – and it has been a privilege meeting you both, with Madelaine and Sveva last year when you were here.

    Madelaine’s film is just beautiful … but for now your own heart is understandably at a loss … with big hugs and much love … Hilary

  25. I was browsing through Pinterest and came across your site. I am so sorry for you and your family’s loss. I can only imagine how your heart feels. Though we are strangers, I want you to know that I’m thinking of you and sending hugs your way. I am a mom and I don’t know what I would do if I lost my kids.

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