The Dead Dove

When people see this image they respond in different ways. Some have said it’s a photograph full of sadness, that it’s hard to look at.  Some say it’s foreboding, an ill omen of days to come.  Other are more pragmatic: The dove flew into the window and fell down dead. That’s it. It meant nothing.

My response is to turn it into art.  I can’t say that I like the image, but I also can’t deny that it holds immense significance for me.  That’s my baby. The diagnosis of his terminal illness came shortly after this dove flew into my window and died.  It’s a profound moment in time if you think about it and I wonder at myself for having had the wherewithall to get my camera and capture it.

 

I tried scraping the color away with an x-acto knife to add texture.  I liked the effect at first, but by the time I got to Knox’s face, I was crying a lot and I didn’t want to scrape any more.  Any image of him, whether photographed or drawn, is precious to me.

I left it alone.

 

Grieving my baby boy is hard work.  It’s exhausting.   The rough days at the end of his life are still bothering me and I can’t  stop thinking about what I might have done differently.  Sometimes all I want is to do is to go to sleep and not feel the pain for a little while.  But as soon as I open my eyes, there it is again.  The empty crib, the silent room, the ache of another day without hearing his voice.

 

 

Published in Somerset Studio Jan/Feb 2014

I’m surprised and delighted to see my Bandit Girl and the Ladybugs paintings( I, II, and III)  featured in the current issue of Somerset Studio!  My heart-felt thanks, once again, to the editors over at Stampington for including my work.

Be sure and check out the current issue at your local bookstore.  Here in central Texas they can be found in Barnes and Noble bookstores and they are also carrying them in Michael’s stores!

And speaking of Somerset Studio, the current challenge for Jane Austen inspired art is due by Feb. 15th. I know there are many of you out there who create beautiful work (I see your blogs!) and have never gotten up the nerve to submit your work for publication.  Let 2014 be the year you put yourself out there!  Create, send it in, and see what happens!

I’ve got some sweet “Thinking of You” cards I just added to Knox’s Etsy shop. Remember all proceeds from his little shop go to CS research and to the aid of families with a child suffering from this syndrome.  Check out Amy and Friends for more information on the charity I support with these funds.

 

And now for a bit about my Knox.  The hard truth is he’s been declining since his 3rd birthday last July. He was hospitalized twice recently, once in late October for dehydration and then immediately following for his first case of pneumonia.  He has been weakened by illness and is now becoming ill frequently. Over the last 3 months he’s lost weight and now weighs a mere 12 pounds, 10 ounces.  He continues to eat well by mouth but his body does not absorb the calories.  Today, he is recovering from an ear infection he developed last week and is finally feeling better.

We had the chance to attend a special birthday party in December!  Knox’s little friend, Miss A., who also has severe Cockayne Syndrome, turned 2 years old and we had a wonderful time celebrating with her family.  As far as we know, Knox and Miss A. are currently the only children in Texas with CS2.

For those of you that have been following my blog for a while, I appreciate your prayers and kind thoughts on our behalf.  This road is getting harder.  The company I keep each week includes Knox’s nurse, his therapist, and the hospice staff.  I’m thankful for them.  Maybe I’ll write more about Knox later, but right now this is all I feel I can share.

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Up next: Lunchbox Love Notes

Thanks for stopping by and Happy New Year!

 

 

 

Mixed-Media Face Challenge

Cloth, Paper, Scissors magazine has issued a “Faces of Mixed Media” challenge in their Sept./Oct. issue.

This challenge is perfect for trying something new!  I’ve given it a shot, purposefully aiming for a different look than all my usual stuff.  The rules?  Only pens, pencils, or markers can be used and the paper must measure 4″ x 4″ .

Click here for complete challenge information.

 

 

I confess I’m into purple hair right now.  I couldn’t resist coloring the hair 2 shades of purple.

 

By the way, I’ve had fun playing around with this hair shadow from Sephora.

It’s easy to use: blow dry, apply powder, hair spray, heat set, spray again.  It stays put until you shampoo it out.

I’ll be donning these colored locks for the Amy and Friends Cockayne Syndrome Family Retreat this weekend.  Knox and I fly out tomorrow morning to spend some much needed time of encouragement and support with our CS family in England again.  Over 70 families from dozens of countries will be there! I’m so excited to see all of the families and children we met last year, and meet new families as well.  Plus, I’m going to get to meet 2 of my blogging friends, as well.  Lisette from MrsBeez, and Hilary from Positive Letters, see you soon! xox

Have a wonderful week and I’ll see you back here in October! I’ll be working on my Candy Corn Queen 2013!

Thanks for stopping by!